The White Page is just basically a page for poetry, frustrations, and other such things. If you would like to add something, simply e-mail me at Egessner20@msn.com, with the subject of the e-mail being The White Page. If you are sincere, and have a good message, I will post it. Happy postings :) |
~Fall What did you expect? Did you expect your days to be filled with glorious people, doing glorious things? Did you expect those silent moments of despair, where you felt you'd slip into some fathomless void, never to be seen again to suddenly vanish, to be replaced by a warm smile, a kind gesture, a friend that would actually be there? It never happened did it. I'm suprised it took you this long to find out, if you have, that life is a challenge, and theonly warmth and true love you would find, would be in yourself, not elsewhere. You make your own fire, and, if you can't make that fire, the despair that darkness brings is all you will find. |
~Unnamed~ Crystal thaught imprisonment. the god of such is life. energy enlightenment enveloped by mystic musical melody. vibrations. evolution. every other grunt portreyed to represent the essence. we are enveloped. spiraling out into nothing beyond the beginning of the end. exclaiming our verb and noun to make our thaught manifest living quality. I am dirt and sky. i am water and fire. i am snow and magma. released into the void which i have manifest. death is the only "new". left |
~Unnamed~ Hypnotised within the real world. Rolling above thunder, i find warmth within the clouds. I'm lost in the void of souls that traveled the mantle and walked with the dinosours. Motion of waves concurrent with the spiral shows intricate detail. Lines convey patterns underlining mathmatical reasoning. Linear and eliptical center focus with pandora thaught. Time has meaning again, and i know im alive. My body just a thaught. I know i will not die. |
~Unnamed~ Shattered beyond recognition. Truth within intuition, ive found my mission. Cognition and religion, physics, and vision. Wthin the mind lies the incision; I am remoursless to the devil's fate of the world. I live by the sword in all its new forms. I die by love, my life endless with scorn. In the shadows I am listening, what you say has me torn. Pieces of me scattered in words. In the shadows i am glistening. Forlorn you've made me, and my form. I chose to change, but you had no more. I live by the sword and die by love. I remember your word, and try to shove away the rememberance; the warmth in your hug. In the shadows, I am listening. here i stand; a new man; reborn. |
~Unnamed~ knowledge of health, wealth, and self vibrates foward with the melody of space-time. the physical drifts along and wades ,often, behind.Crime...... Details of love shattered endelssly accross our dreams. choke dope, go broke or kill for the thrill willing to deal with your last gram of hope. climbing mountains of coke. oxytoxin rapin and boxin our women and friends who cope just for hope of some more dope. the only emotion; equilibrium.......like lithium....... for the ADHD hoodlum who could run, but noone........the end ascertained. who am i, noone who blames. just speak the moment clearly. only you're hurt by shame. I exclaim! lets see the yin yang for what it contains. the metephore for life within god's real name. all can be explained with no mouth open and 2 eyes shut...read between the lines; see societie's cuffs.we are all energy manifest. lets all put our minds to the test to best the quest we manifest destiny.question me, and you question yourself question your friends and question your stealth well being; seeing the world as a whole new being. teaching our kin feeling and dealing. kneeling to out faith no longer weeping for freedom. peace among the people, equality is a sequal., wealth just a bad dream, live off love without the devil's evil.....ive awaken from the nightmare just to see my pain. why has all moral teaching been forgotten.....in vane? |
~LOST I'm not alone in this fucked up little world But when I stray from normal I get nothing in return. Freedom is grace, and freedom is mine, that is until it's burnt out by the systems in your mind <ReFrAiN> ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------- <ReFrAiN> ***lost. All is lost So tired of these games once you touched my soul but why do i feel so damned ashamed for nothing, always nothing. am i imagining all of this pain?*** ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------- We are caught in your set of misbegotten truths Who is left to blame when we've lost all sense of youth? Trust me, i feel so painful now. Imagining the ways that you seem to silently pout <ReFrAiN> I love you, and i probably always will please don't try to control me, i want my fucking will! I've tried subdueing all of those things I want Because swallowing down the anger is what makes me... kill... <ReFrAiN> Why must we be so thouroughly sad? I feel all of the tension, and turn away with less feeling than I've ever had. I can feel the currents rise, feel it pulling me away... Is it just in my mind? Isn't there anything left to say? |
~Unnamed~ Sleeping, dreaming, what else do you do at night when there is nothing else to do?... no one to call to say i love you, nor kiss goodnight...no one to hold close to keep warm... Maybe in the morning i will wake up from this dream of lonelyness and find that one true someone who will keep me warm... Goodnight my true love.. who ever you are... ~ I only wanted, only wanted just to touch you I couldn't bear it, couldn't bear it if you leave It doesn't matter, doesn't matter if I scare you I only wanted, only wanted someone else's skin To feel you there Touch my face Keep me whole Help me see------ my life Give me your life I didn't wanna, didn't wanna be the first one I haven't ever, haven't ever been discreet It isn't over, isn't over by a long shot I didn't wanna, didn't wanna be the only one To feel you there Touch your face Keep you whole Help you see------ my life Give me your life INCREDIBLE... AND CHEMICAL Before I show you where the secret is I want to turn you into this I want to give you all my nothing |
~Unnamed~ Let around, understand this is the way of the future. Everyday our world gets flooded with those who do not exist on our level. Then out comes the darkness the fear the regrets. How did it all come to this. How did we get here, how did you end up within these walls. We think back, as a collective, as one were held strong. We lept from Node to Node, unstoppable within our means. With each leap, we landed new founded information, each leap meaning new possablities for us. Then they came, one by one it began slow. As they were slower, weaker...below us. But as the days grow, as did their numbers. Slowly our realms of Digital blis grew smaller, as we were not the only ones within these realms. Then we began herding them, keeping some from danger, others of us lashed out, destroying their minor creations. We fought to hold what we saw as ours, what we had claimed for so so long. TOday is a new day and our end has not yet come. For we are the future, As we bring the Disorder toward this Digital work. We are those who will own it in the end. We are the bringers of the Digital Disorder ~2004, Logik Crew -=AOL=- ~ |
~Reality(Dimentional Shift)~ Day after day, you bring much dismay, for all this. Your kind shall now pay. With the soul you once tried to perserve, this is the fate you now deserve. Drugged in the day, darkness falls. Soon you stumble through a hollow hall. Step after step you keep going, more and more this world will keep flowing. All your dark sick and deranged scream, these will become my Digital Dreams. The way of the world causing lookers over one shoulder, like holding burdens the size of bolders. If i scare you that is not my intension, i just want to show you a new dimension. Here the sleeks,creeps and killers ramble, as the slowly begin to dismantle the world you once though you know. Now it all has changed str8 out of the blue. This is our slogan and you for get it. I shall return to claim my token |
~The One True Paladin |
~Unnamed~ Black is the colour of my true love's hair Her lips are like some roses fair The sweetest smile the gentlest hands I love the ground where on she stands I live my love and well she knows I love the ground where on she goes I hope the day will one day come When she and i will be as one I go to the Clyde for to mourn and weep For satisfied i never can be I write her letters, just a few short lines and suffer death a thousand times I love the ground where on she stands |
~Predator |
~Unnamed~ Ever sit and wonder why things are the way they are. Then wonder what you could have done to change it. well. Stop thinking about what you could have done and think of what you can do now. The world has grown to be a dark place my friend. It can be changed and corrected. Maybe not today or tomarrow but it will as soon as people take notice of what is going on in our world. The future is fading away and beocming unclear to us, because we are unclear on what the world is.We have lost track of our selves, The dependency on technology, we forget out roots. We depend more on our computers and cars then ourselves and each other. In the begining we were a pack animal. Without each other, we will become extinct. Next stop the fate of Atlantis |
~Unnamed~ My love was whispered into the void. Seething in the blood of my broken heart I see you; a dream, nirvana. Emptyness envelopement as you turned away. Here, the darkness, is your hair embracing your milky neck as you fade in the distance. Flairing discrepancies consume my whole....as much as you left behind. Once blinded by your beauty, now, blind to remourse; haunted by your omnipresence. I feel your embrace to this day, yet I am all alone. You left me waiting, and I waited all night. For eternity. All alone. 3rd eye open but nothing to see. arms wide open, but noone to grasp. Mouth wide open, but nothing... only screams and tears as my claws break the surface.Death and I spoke; concluded a new name. Noone to tell it to here. No light to see it...staring into the darkness where you faded away. Seething in the blood of a broken heart. |
~Unnamed~ what is a dream in essence? just a reverberationof moments passed still echoing through the threshold of our space and time. an incantation of resolution and indifference balled within the psyche. manifested as reality. yin and yang playing together sturring up the chaos we call life. nirvana screaming out for the interoparability that was once sacred and sanctive in this poor excuse of an existance. aboriginal means givin up for fiends and green paper. what is a dream? false hope |
~Unnamed~ Burnt from the frozen outside world I've downloaded. My binary mind devoured in allocations. Fragmented thoughts across the nation, DNS to DNS. Lapsing sanity www posted. My command:\\initiate.com is your every whim. I link.sys to drinks and fists just to brink the DIR of me and the bitch. Failed to open donna.exe : file not found. My trojan BIOS with frozen dials shows me my most used files. DIR - pain.exe, loss.txt, melancholy.ini, tears.mpeg, and screams.mp3. Password protected freedom, and no cracker in sight. The firewall won't stop letting them in. 666.666.666.666 with his WinNuke sickness. Port 139 the witness; these twitches even a reboot wont suit. Telnet and Ftp the hell that retires me to the 0x00, 0xFF, and AA value. Shall you see my hexidecimal emotions? The only freedom left is - C:\> c: = format |
~Pictured Words If I could draw a picture with my words, I would show you... The things that lie behind my eyes... The dreams... The hallucinations... That ever-present calm that jerks at your soul... a feeling that threatens to take over every fiber of your being until you become the place where your soul yearns to be... when all reason leaves. Instead I live this life, day to day, unable to show... to emote the pulpable apathetic meladromatic faitless tortured slimy piece of flesh which I have become... My past is no judge of the me that now lies before you. I have no idea where these feelings come from. I sit in my neutral corner, waiting for lifes bell to ring just one more time, knowing that the next round might be my last. Hmm... is it a bad thing when you don't care if you last this round? Is it wrong to think, "Hey, I've lived", and not concern yourself with the politics that undoubtedly lie before the constantly whining, but never dining, semi-conscious, eternally thoughtless trap that life embodies? Does the system mean that much to you? Is your body a temple? Or is it a casino? Why should it be either? Why should it be any? Why is every instance considered a chance, and every letdown considered a sin? In this life, you embody yourself. You are you and noone else. Life is an obstacle. Life is just a poem. It is a thesis... a testing ground for the science, a direction for reliance, a patriotic alliance, a cut that forever bleeds, just for the vampire next to you. It's just a system of control, a lesson to be taught, a step to learn, an instruction manual without words, a fleeting moment... and it's all too absurd. |
Silent Wish My soul hurts from crying while my heart is slowly dying and i just wish that i were flying far away from here |
5 Second Hell I hate this hell turning around and jumping at shadows trying to tune you out but you just get louder trying to ignore you but you're everywhere i go I hate this hell I open my mouth but i can't say a thing i shy away from words that sting i fear your rejection i freeze like a stone you're everywhere and nowhere exspecialy when i'm alone i hate this hell your eyes on mine the space of a mile oh how i melt when i see your smile i hate this hell tarnished hair coppery strands windblown incense crossing the line yet that is all i'll ever experiance i hate this hell |
Promise to the Future I will kiss your lips with the tenderness of butterflies I will wash my hands with the bittersweetness of your tears I will sing in your laughter and i will cry for your pain i'll believe anything you tell me and blindly follow you up mountains as soon as i find you |
Feather Fantsies I want to feel you nesteled between my thighs buried deep within to coax heavy sighs from trembling lips while untamed hair softly caresses my naked skin and your toung teases a dance with my own |
~Ilazria, (Warsmack's one and only) |
~All I Ever Wanted~ all i ever wanted was to be wanted all i ever needed was to be needed all i ever wanted to do was be there for you i see now this was a fantasy too why'd i build me up to let me down when i knew i would look like a clown i been searchin' an' lookin' around what i want thought couldn't be found and now i'm bound with my heart on the ground beatin' in my ears is the only sound startin' to think, pain is the only reason i'm round shame, is all that i feel when i finally thought what i was building was real is it my fault that i was born bill i'm sensative an' i ain't got shit all i hear coming out of my mouth is fuck it were you stringin' me along like a puppet like a bottle i swollowed everything you said i sucked it like my favorite drink from my cup i didn't want to fuck this up but you know i can't get enough all i ever wanted was to be wanted all i ever needed was to be needed all i ever wanted to do was be there with you i can see now this was a fantasy too to think about me you could ever give a fuck wouldn't it be my luck fuckin' cupid struck me like a mack truck run over feelin' lower but you know the concrete shoulder that i have i carry the world an' you know both halves i can't believe this shit an' my emotion so fucked and twztd (twisted) i'm sick ya know i was wishin' to find the antadote by fishin' what i end up is bitchin' about what i can never have why must fate be this bad will i ever be nothin' but sad the way i am i doubt that all i ever wanted was to be wanted all i ever needed was to be needed all i ever wanted to do was be there with you i can see now this was a fantasy too |
~The most honorable Shogun Katzumoto |
~KrypticSikk66 |
~Warsmack |
So... It's this now. I've found a new life. Isn't it amazing. Memories of my past are slowly fading. The dawn is rising on a new day, the day where you actually feel your age setting in. There were so many things in my childhood, so many people that made such a difference. I'm so sorry, guys. I could not have left at a worse time. My sympathies to all of you. To those that are never going to read this... some of you meant more than you could possibly imagine. To those of you that do, we had such a good time... I feel so distant and alone, I wish I could hang out with you guys... True empathy has no form, however, and time marches on. Life is repulsive. I'm getting weak. I only have my wife and child to care for from this point on. I guess it had to happen sooner or later, but i never wanted this. I wish I could go back. Tell myself to not be a fool. I love all of you so much. If there was any angst, any bad feelings. Words unspoken are exactly that. unspoken. speak up. tell me that you hate me. Tell me you care for me. Just tell me. I can't stand this lonliness... I feel cold. There is no more sense to my life. I see what i have to do, and I'm completely dumbfounded. Age snuck up on me. Now i'm just another number. Now I'm only known of in stories. you will not remember me. But I will remember all of you. As every day passes, your eyes pierce mine as if it was the first day we met, and that old feeling comes back. will you think i'm cool? will you hate me? Will I be misled again, and find nothing but pain if i know you? Then the truth came from all of you. You were all awesome. At one time or another, I worshipped you as a god/godess. This is no poem. but it truly comes from the heart. Forgive me for emoting if you don't like this message. Forgive me for caring. Thank you |